Chennai life!

Its been one and a half years now, being in the great metro city, Chennai, and when I think back, what change I have gone through, I get only one answer, “ I have grown up a bit.”. But really have I? No, I feel I need to grow up lot more. But still, I guess I have changed.

Now I don’t mind traveling at night 8 on the main roads. I don’t fear as much as I did, when I go in autos. I don’t mind calling up customer care or any number to solve for any issues. I don’t even mind talking to them rudely. I don’t fear now as much as I did, to use debit cards at ATM while withdrawing cash. I even wonder how I have the courage now to use the credit cards also, and that too online! I do travel in trains alone, and that too an overnight journey. I don’t hesitate to think of travel by flight and going by taxi from airport. I don’t mind buying fruits, vegetables and groceries from supermarket. I don’t mind doing shopping alone and spending one or two hours at any gift shop. I don’t mind buying expensive sarees and shirts for my parents or sisters or relatives, and that too with my own money. I don’t mind didn’t mind for spending whooping money for my mobile. I don’t mind meeting new people, and that too online unknown faces, and that too alone. I don’t mind going out with friends either alone or as a gang in the evenings! I don’t mind having pizzas or burgers or fried rice or biriyani at team dinners, I don’t even mind having tomato soup, considering the fact I hate tomato like anything!! Can you believe it!! I don’t mind the silence from other people. I don’t get that much angry or disappointed nowadays. Ya I agree I still do a bit, but don’t have hatred towards others, or shout at people or bark at them. I feel I think more, though I do with heart than with mind. I can now ignore the irritating behaviour of the people. I have reduced keeping expectations from others, coz I have realized those are the ones which causes you pain. I feel I can understand when people answer me in some specific way. I can feel the age difference and also a bit of the saying, old people explain like, “we are more experienced, child, I can understand”. I have now learned to say sorry and forgive others. I have now opened up to many, rather than the introvert nature I had. I have learned now to pray not for me, but for others…

But still, I feel I have to grow more… In what aspects, I have yet to find out…

Strange are those invisible nuclear changes which give away to the minute differences and at the end to the massive explosion!!

Post Valentine’s Day Rants…

Another valentine’s day got over.. It was very recently that this day got this much recognition and people started celebrating one special day to celebrate love. All the youngsters now look forward to this day with very high hopes n dreams. I agree lots of people, including myself are a part of them.

Many people are against this V-day, saying this is all western culture and that they need not have a special day for revealing their love towards their close ones. Ya, indeed we need not have specific day and time for that, but in our busy schedule and hectic life, where Indians are progressing like the West in living a mechanical life routine, I guess, enjoying and celebrating such days boosts up our private life and our emotional quotient.

And without emotions and feelings, man is not complete. Every one loves and cares for atleast few people if not more, and the different names like care, friendship, crush, infatuation, love, and the different classifications within love like love for parents, love for partner, love for siblings, love for friends and what not! uff! All are gimmicks, atleast that’s what i feel. Each human being has consistent emotions and feelings of his own and that too predefined to certain other beings, be it other human beings or to animals and birds. And its the man who changed the whole perspective and put the limitations or restrictions for loving each other. He created the limits for friendship and love, by defining physical intimacy, but they may have forgot that hugs and touch are the best ways to show care. They have limited the word of love to only the love between lovers. Can’t we celebrate the day for spreading love to parents, friends, sisters, and even neighbours!!

Oh ok, I guess I am too much preaching like Mother Teresa.. 🙂 But at times, I really feel utmost respect for her, b’coz her preachings of love was so true. It teaches you so many things in life, and its deficiency leads to disaster in day to day life… Only if the whole society accepted the same and started following her principles from the first! What changes would have happened??? Umm.. Well, there wont be any discrimination, blah blah…those are too general.. leave it there. Then there wont be any misunderstandings between friendships and love. Though i agree some limits is needed btw boys and girls, many people put too much restrictions to even frienships between them. When there can be many beautiful relations arising out, the society turns them out to some thing else! All people need solace and are dependent on each other. And i guess that’s where love evolves…

So let’s hope this V-day refreshes the love we have for each other just like a new year presents us with new opportunities and refreshes our responsibilities..

And regarding you people’s doubt, (;-)) no, i have no valentine as of now, but for me, I love my parents, sis and all my friends(online and real)!!! Thats more than enough for me to enjoy the day! 🙂

Time pass tagging…

The song you have been humming all afternoon:
“vizhikalil” from some tamil film featuring navya nair and prasanna.

The weirdest thing you’ve ever done:
ehem.. .. one is to brush my teeth with someone’s shaving cream! and the other one to lure/blackmail someone with a false email id! 😐

Your very first crush, do you still like them or even remember them –
Obviously was in school, but he was not from my school!(Hint hint! :P), as its a girls’ only school…
Don’t like him any more in that way for sure, and I don’t have any contact with him too… 🙂

What do you do and do you find it interesting:

I am an IT professional and I am interesting in any computer-related work…

Committed or single:

As of now single! 😉

Cloud 9 moment:
Lots n lots of moments!!

The weirdest person you came across today:

Mayb I have not met him in person, but on online, KingKrool of TE(www.techenclave.com) as of now!!!(don ask me why!!!)

How’s your mood:
Sometimes very funny, sometimes very serious, sometimes sarcastic, sometimes very active and lively.But no one can predict when the phase change happens.. Not even myself!

Last movie you saw:

Vivaah

Last book you read:
Anything for you, ma’am by Tushar Raheja

What do you think of yourself:
Don’t ask me such difficult questions as in interviews… 🙁

One word for the person who tagged you:
Chandni…oh meri chaandni…. 😛

Ever fallen in love? How does it feel?
Its beautiful.. but its indefinable…

Anyone wants to pick it up?? Just link back pls.. 🙂

EDIT: Two months after I wrote this post, I found the childhood crush this week on net! 🙂 wat a coincidence!

Unspoken words…

Everything was over. The sun had set in the horizon. My mind had gone numb with joy or sorrow? I don’t know. As I walked along th hallway, the only sound heard was that of my new anklets bought two weeks ago. I was deeply immersed in the beehive of thoughts and anxiety while my steps took me to the room. The door was partly kept ajar as if it was waiting for me to open it. I opened the door slowly and searched for him. The room light was dim and the sunset coloured ambience of the bulbs added the special effects.
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