30 day challenge?

Recently I was searching for some inspirational videos, quotes and posts which could lift my sombre mood, and I found this TED Talk of doing something new for 30 days. I had already heard of blogging marathon, or the novel writing in the month of November, which are some of the “do it in 30 days” challenges. But one of the slides mentions that its also an opportunity to reduce or subtract something from your life. While reading on time management tips from Preeti Shenoy, I found that I spend lot time wasting on Facebook. I would read the innumerous feeds, searching for inspirations, links and clicks, to follow what other people do, rather than searching myself on what can I do, and doing that then and there. Procastination has been a habit every afternoon when my little one sleeps. Thats the only me time I get and I spend wasting on internet reading and catching up what others are doing.

I am thinking of some resolution at this point that I will not check out FB, unless I do something creative enough to show others off. Rather I would just concentrate on this blogging to see whether it really excites me much. This will not be one post a day challenge, but I wish to take up that soon.

Let me control my cravings first, and then see whether I can embark on another journey.

On being at home

While searching for inspirations on what to blog on, I usually try to read as many blogs as I can. Its like a conversation. Some say their opinion, and we too come up with ours.

So I read most of the Project 52 blog posts for the Week 6 from the Facebook, and found a blog by Uma. She expressed almost the same feelings on being at home which I wanted to convey and that too in a beautiful free flowing language. Since I am just trying to find my rhythm back, I guess I would just quote the lines which spoke like “its me who is talking there”!Continue reading →

Help yourself?

The initiative of marathon blogging which sort of became my inspiration last month, could never be done. And then, when I thought it lasted, they started the Project 52, to post atleast one every week. More than returning to blogging to release my cumulative feelings, there is one more reason I really want to do this.

Over the weekend, N slept early one day, allowing us to catch a break free movie, English Vinglish. The movie was good, but what strike me was the resemblance. The way she wanted to help herself. It seemed that the dialogue was told by me to myself. Many a times, being at home, when you really feel the urge to do something, I just lose my heart. Sometimes, the question maybe what to do, and sometimes, it may be which one to do. And then I end up doing nothing, with the overwhelming thoughts bogging me and my mood down. The problem then starts. I lose my patience easily, and sometimes even end up shouting or spanking N. And then the retrospection phase begins and ends up with decision to do something the very next day. The cycle always continues.

I suppose, if not being productive or creative, I should atleast release the built up thoughts either in the form of a diary or a blog. The former has the privacy advantage, while the latter has the chances of any feedback or response to boost you up. I am picking up the latter for the time being.

Let me see whether I can help myself.