For some writers, writing is cathartic. To let go of the emotions which are overflowing through their minds. I remember writing this blog to put out my experiences as a way to create connections with other people. In my retrospective times, I realise I have always been wanting to make “connections” and “long lasting friendships” as seen in movies and shows.
I wonder whether we seek friendships or societal connections for meeting the needs of self- validation through friendships. To have the impression that I am important to someone, for them to take time out and call me or go for chit chat, have intellectual talk, seek advice etc. I remember feeling the need to fill the void after being in college, though it actually started in high school. Whoever I have asked for feedback, kept telling me they considered me as a weirdo in those times. I don’t deny, considering how I have sent prank emails to someone in college to get attention! It took me years and few broken hearts to figure that, our friendships too, like in relationships, can break up, can get cheated on, be lonely etc. Social media validation in the form of likes and followers are clear examples of what we were looking for in the 90s era. To realise that those were not even crushes, but an effort for ourselves to feel good in the eyes of random people. I remember reading Normal People by Sally Rooney and quite relatable to being Marianne.
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