Bluediamond. I registered in the digit magazine’s community forum under this name. I don’t remember now, how i coined this name, myself and my cousin might have coined it together at that time. I registered there mainly to solve the comp queries as everyone do.
I got to know few ID’s, lots of links, softwares, tips, other forums, and also what people do online.Out of the few forums, there was Tech Arena, which was formed from Digit members long back… The community was new, members were few and also known virtual faces. I was like in a community school, with bunch of geeky heads, (of course boys!), and with pretty of information passed around. As always spam was there, new interesting threads were created, people added each other on messengers. The discussions on forums, continued in form of conferences over messengers. I became was frequent in this new forum, while I checked out on the old digit forums too. I got to know people like Andy, Pallab, Neha, Grudgy, Sreejith, Digen, Deep, it_waaznt_me and many more from digit..(It seems these people split from digit and formed Techspot.in)..and large list of people from TechArena including Deejay, QuickFire, Anshul, Masky, Switch, Renegade, Aces, Hooligan, Inzider, IceFusion, Medpal, Sunmysore, Venkat, Bosky, Bottle, Blade_Runner.. the list is huge!!! I was kinda getting addicted to the forums and online community, when another split happened and Techenclave was formed. But stil, the old friends were there, some new joined, some left the gang.
All this to just remind me of my old days. Now thinking of the past, I don’t even remember the forums I joined, I created, I spent time on, I read through, I registered… What am I doing? What were I doing online? It gave me lot new people, gave insights of many world, many views, and also the opportunity to meet different people! But then who am I in their minds? A respected member? A friend? A techie girl? Or a flirt? Or a girl whom you can chat with online for time pass? Some people have said, that these online friends are not at all trustful. They just are chatting with me friendly with the intentions of you-know-what.. Are they?
I went on to the online meets in Chennai, without any hesitation. And there, the “bluediamond” was a odd-girl out among the whole bunch of big guys..To be really frank, I am from a usual conservative family and like all families of young girls, they too were reluctant to my decisions initially. But I still moved on.. But these questions have always been lingering in my mind..Do the people whom I talk to, know who I am? Can they understand me? What do they think when talking with me? What am I to them? Do they also consider me as friend as I consider them?
Sometimes I feel like stopping everything and move out of this virtual world. But then what is good in this real world.. The forums, the sites, the internet as a whole, at times have boosted up my spirits, when I had really nothing to do at home. I had many other options, I may still have, but i don’t think the online life is so long. One day, it will really come to an end, and then “bluediamond” may not be alive.. Only me will be left. Who will be remembered then? Bluediamond or me? Or will I ever be remembered? Lots of people have already moved on. As time goes on, I really wonder, whether anyone would ever remember those (beautiful?) clippings of life where we all were together in the big world of virtual community….