The Bourne Identity

Bluediamond. I registered in the digit magazine’s community forum under this name. I don’t remember now, how i coined this name, myself and my cousin might have coined it together at that time. I registered there mainly to solve the comp queries as everyone do.

I got to know few ID’s, lots of links, softwares, tips, other forums, and also what people do online.Out of the few forums, there was Tech Arena, which was formed from Digit members long back… The community was new, members were few and also known virtual faces. I was like in a community school, with bunch of geeky heads, (of course boys!), and with pretty of information passed around. As always spam was there, new interesting threads were created, people added each other on messengers. The discussions on forums, continued in form of conferences over messengers. I became was frequent in this new forum, while I checked out on the old digit forums too. I got to know people like Andy, Pallab, Neha, Grudgy, Sreejith, Digen, Deep, it_waaznt_me and many more from digit..(It seems these people split from digit and formed Techspot.in)..and large list of people from TechArena including Deejay, QuickFire, Anshul, Masky, Switch, Renegade, Aces, Hooligan, Inzider, IceFusion, Medpal, Sunmysore, Venkat, Bosky, Bottle, Blade_Runner.. the list is huge!!! I was kinda getting addicted to the forums and online community, when another split happened and Techenclave was formed. But stil, the old friends were there, some new joined, some left the gang.

All this to just remind me of my old days. Now thinking of the past, I don’t even remember the forums I joined, I created, I spent time on, I read through, I registered… What am I doing? What were I doing online? It gave me lot new people, gave insights of many world, many views, and also the opportunity to meet different people! But then who am I in their minds? A respected member? A friend? A techie girl? Or a flirt? Or a girl whom you can chat with online for time pass? Some people have said, that these online friends are not at all trustful. They just are chatting with me friendly with the intentions of you-know-what.. Are they?

I went on to the online meets in Chennai, without any hesitation. And there, the “bluediamond” was a odd-girl out among the whole bunch of big guys..To be really frank, I am from a usual conservative family and like all families of young girls, they too were reluctant to my decisions initially. But I still moved on.. But these questions have always been lingering in my mind..Do the people whom I talk to, know who I am? Can they understand me? What do they think when talking with me? What am I to them? Do they also consider me as friend as I consider them?

Sometimes I feel like stopping everything and move out of this virtual world. But then what is good in this real world.. The forums, the sites, the internet as a whole, at times have boosted up my spirits, when I had really nothing to do at home. I had many other options, I may still have, but i don’t think the online life is so long. One day, it will really come to an end, and then “bluediamond” may not be alive.. Only me will be left. Who will be remembered then? Bluediamond or me? Or will I ever be remembered? Lots of people have already moved on. As time goes on, I really wonder, whether anyone would ever remember those (beautiful?) clippings of life where we all were together in the big world of virtual community….

18 Comments

  1. “They just are chatting with me friendly with the intentions of you-know-what.. Are they?”
    I think I’ve heard this term before. ๐Ÿ˜‰

    I guess you must not take Forums and things like that this seriously. I also did, but now I’ve stopped visiting often (now twice in a week or so that too for not more than 15 minutes). Life will have to move on… you can’t have the same online life you had in your past. The same with the real life as well. ๐Ÿ˜€

    Coming to the question you raised…. to be honest.. I never saw any of my friends with you-know-what intentions..ever.

  2. Listen to Dr.Grudge! ๐Ÿ˜‰

    As time flies, good friends become a distant star in the memory lane ๐Ÿ™

    Virtual or real life, its true in either case. But Life moves on. ๐Ÿ™‚

  3. What am I doing? What were I doing online? It gave me lot new people, gave insights of many world, many views, and also the opportunity to meet different people! But then who am I in their minds? A respected member? A friend? A techie girl? Or a flirt? Or a girl whom you can chat with online for time pass? Some people have said, that these online friends are not at all trustful. They just are chatting with me friendly with the intentions of you-know-what.. Are they?

    Be it a real life or virtual life, there will be enough people around to call you a flirt, time pass, good friend, techie girl etc.. in real life too you will meet people who are not so trustful or are with bad intentions.. but just don’t think much. Let the things go on as they are going.. dont take things very much seriously, dont take things very much lightly either… if you are opening your diary with anyone, just make sure that you know the person well. The same applies to online or offline friends.

    You will find many people saying you cannot trust friends on the net but I will make an exception here.. I am going to marry a girl to whom I met on the internet… I have met some of the great friends through internet.. the people who are closer to me than my real friends. And I seriously thank internet for that… because without it, I would have never met these guys.

    So the key is, take things lightly and fight with the bad phase..there will be sadness in the beginning but this sadness is sign of a good thing which is going to come in near future.. think positive and the world will be yours ๐Ÿ™‚

    Good Luck
    Deep

  4. Interesting to read whats on the mind of the sole female frequenter of TE ๐Ÿ˜› didn’t know all of the history part when it came to TE….goes back a long way doesn’t it …i guess TE, TA etc will be forgotten in the end eventually, its just that it all seems interesting NOW. I’m on and off TE all the time, frequent it in january and forget bout it in feb…i guess TE is special because of all the meets and that in a way its almost a real community of geek heads rather than just a purely virtual one.

  5. Hi,

    I don’t know you

    Just got link for your blog from aswin(Even i don’t know him saw him on digit forum)

    Its just my first day on your blog and its my third read and third post on your blog

    You are really an interesting girl. But yarr don’t think like that thers always a dark side of everything.

    Ya we always remeber these online time and days we spent there
    I never forgot “My first time on chatting I chat with a girl there and first chat she give me her number(6 yrs back)” And i never called her or gave her my number.
    I was thinking is it virtual or reality she don’t know me i don’t know her normal talk and she gives me her number and i promised her to call her.

    after a lot of thinking mujhe bas itna hi smajh mein aaya ki is virtual world mein bhi kuch real hota hai

    And its better than real world coz aap jo chahe express kar sakte hai yahan per

    Also jaisa Deep ne kaha Be positive and “if you are opening your diary with anyone, just make sure that you know the person well. The same applies to online or offline friends. ”

    Mujhe nahin lagta i have to say much about it

  6. @piyush: thanku!!! ๐Ÿ˜€
    i m thinking in positive only, but at times, these kinda thoughts aa jati hai… ๐Ÿ˜›

  7. My pleasure
    Ya mam its true time to time aise thoughts aa jati hai

    r u from north india as u r talking in hindi also.

  8. naah! me keralite, sweet mallu… hihi… ๐Ÿ˜€
    and hindi talking, mayb online friends ka sangat ka asar hai… ๐Ÿ˜‰

  9. I dont care if you call yourself BlueDiamond… you’ll always be “beedi” ๐Ÿ˜› ๐Ÿ˜› ๐Ÿ˜›

    hehe..

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